Yikes, so here we are, the end of January 2018 and I have found a new path in my journey. I will be moving on from SLOCOE, but is it really moving on, which to me sounds so final, or is it moving along, which has more of a continuous ring to it?
Since I began working at SLOCOE I have found myself even more reflective of who I am and who I want to be. I’ve gained so much knowledge both professionally and personally.
Personally, because I’ve had the pure pleasure of truly just being myself with my own needs and wants in a very tiny space. I’ve quit smoking in this time as well, most likely due to the fact that I am at peace internally. I still have bouts of anxiety, but not as strong or as lasting. Walking along the harbor, just me and my D-dog, lost in the rhythm of the waves, or the steps or my own breathing. It’s very soothing!
I am looking forward to going back to the mountains full time. But I will miss the sounds of the ocean at night, particularly the seals barking!
Professionally, oh my, I’ve regained my confidence first and foremost. Having had the chance to work with such great people, learn with great supervisors who appreciate and recognize your contributions to the organization and educational community, has been incredible. My own understanding of both assessment and accountability for Math Educations has supported my work for Access and Equity for all students. I truly believe that the collaborative work with the CA Math Community of Practice by CCSESSA, the CAASPP Institutes with SCOE/CDE and being appointed Lecturer for K-8 Math Methods last year at Cal Poly has brought me to this point along with coaching and mentoring by some phenomenal people!
So in this light, I do not see this as Moving On, but actually Moving Along my journey I was meant to take.
Thank you to all of those who have crossed my path along my journey!
It’s been a few days since I’ve written about my word, intentional. Look at that, I’m claiming it, I’m owning it, soon I will be one with it… Intentional!
This conversation that has been taking place over the past few months and the #MeToo movement has really been present in my thoughts. Seriously how could it not be? It’s all over the place, right?! And for good reason, the conversation about sexual harassment and sexual assault needs to be discussed as uncomfortable as it is.
As we move forward with this truth that sexual assault takes place, if and when any of us have someone open up and share with us, that they are being or have been assaulted, be INTENTIONAL in being present with that person as they share. If you are in a role of authority, be aware of your responsibilities to assist this person in finding safety first and foremost. We need to ensure that those that find the bravery to share their experiences are heard, are validated and are not shamed. It is imperative to be Intentionally Present!!
If you recall, one of the ways in which I said I was going to be intentional was by intentionally striving to be my best self for myself and for others.
Well let me tell you, after my first day of physical therapy for the cervical and thoracic sprains I received from the auto accident back in November, I just might cross this one off the list! Yes!! it’s only Day 3 and I’m already considering backing out of one of them!
DO NOT, and I mean DO NOT believe the therapist when they say you will leave feeling like you had a day at the spa! *Unless you enjoy the Midevil Torture Spa*
Seriously though, I truly am striving to be the best me I can be for myself and others. I went to the store after work yesterday and bought healthy foods and snacks, took the dog for a walk this morning and after PT. I also have been using the Arbonne Shake Powder and other products for a little over 6 weeks now, and love how the products are supporting intentionality thing I’ve got going on!
Each day I want to intentionally recognize one thing for which I’m grateful. I may not publicly write about them, but today I want to share how truly grateful I am for being me. It has taken a long time to get here, this place of okay-ness and acceptance with who I am. I actually like who I am!!
I wish we all could find a way to be grateful for who we are earlier in life. However, we are all meant to take the journey we travel to become who we are, at the right time and the right place in our lives. We need to find the ability to forgive ourselves along this journey called life. We have to be willing to look at failures as opportunities to learn and grow, always moving forward.
I know where I’ve been, I know where I am, and I am looking forward to where I will be.
Are you grateful for who you are? What will it take to do so?
I chose the word intentional as my #OneWord2018 for multiple reasons.
- I am going to intentionally set aside time each week to read, both for my professional growth and pleasure.
- I am going to intentionally recognize someone each week who has made an impact on me, either professionally or personally.
- I am going to intentionally pursue opportunities to learn and become a better listener.
- I am going to intentionally recognize one thing each day that I’m grateful for.
- I am going to intentionally reach out to others who I would like to learn from.
- I am going to intentionally plan ways in which to better be reflective, both personally and professionally.
- I am going to intentionally enjoy each and every day, experience and opportunity that comes my way.
- I am going to intentionally strive to be my best self for myself and for others.